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Im still working on this page. This past weeks, its wataheck busy! i had loads of appointments and homework to do! Yesterday, i had maths module exam,the Non calculator paper is fine, but the calculator paper is BAD! especially the las 2 questions! Today,I had my practical on foodtechnology, and im happy on the results, it taste good,:D lol!My last two period was art.i dono if my teacher loves me or hate me, I was just about to sitdown on my chair, buy my teacher keeps on calling my name!"jamielah! whre's jamielah? "so i approach her then at the white board there's a peice of big paper for me and she gave me a piece of card and she told me to start my practice mock which is going to draw the WESTMINSTER PALACE(big ben) mAN its so big and hard.Its not only drawing but i am going to do my ink painting style to create the image. gosh! i was standing there for 50+50mins just schetching and outlining with the ink.... thats all I havent finnised.huhuhu but Its ok. untill now, my hand is shaking,esp my lesf hand.huhuhu! Tommorow i have test unit on my phys.:( hope it goes well but i donthave time to revise.:D and besides I cant bothred lol. ill just enjoy the night. hehehe. till next time:D
atlantist10
10/11/06
:( IM sad... yes I am.... bad news keeps on coming...i keep on hearing it... and its just makes me cry>....Yes. Honestly...i cried because of that..too personal to be in detail. I dont know why me...how come that, the things I really want is not easy for me to get.... I'm a sinner??? A BAD PERSON??? what?/??FU**K all I want is to be happy... be with someone whom I LONNGED FOR SO LONG....and now.. destiny keeps on saying that "you have to take the deepest ocean before you can get it"...Before everything’s fine...and now...they are saying i cant? why?????????Mybe its my fault...now I learned on the things that I've done before....someone is right and she keeps on saying to me…that I have to be like this…have to do that… ect ect…I just realised it now…. Shes right… is it too late….please…I just want to be happy…I wana hear the word….everything is fine…: ) you can go and have fun….huhuh...give me a hug...\
atlantist10
High is the song.... The song that makes me strong.... I'm abit ok now.. but not totally... still depressed, stressed, ect... hahahys... but i keep in keeping my head up high...
back to school tommorow..... and i have loads of things to finish up hahaha! hahays.... I just thank God and for those who understands me and make me happy when I feel so down... the one whe said "smile" just makes my day.. and ofcrz, my weapon..."prayers" :)U
atlantist 10
13/11/06
My Teacher lost my art work? man! what is that?/?? is it that good? that someone will take it? jus jokin and now i have to start it all over again! Huhuhu i cant bothered!!!! but i have to...its a practice for my mock exams for art!!!
:((( but over all im fine:) ehhehe someone makes my day today,, he's so gorgeous:) he is!:)
atlantist10
14/11/06
"Its not hard if your willing to give your best shot,ist not hard if you enjoy it.... but you know what its hard? its when its your best and your enjoying it, someone is not looking at you whom you want to be looking"
I had a great time in my drama lesson today. Everything goes well:D as I pray.:D COMMMENTS? yup all Positive:D they love me really.:D lol tommorow, practical lesson in foodtech,and I have to do my art work again:( but its ok I'll make it much better at this time:) ovelall. Im fine:) too busy of stuff but someone is there who keeps me ongoing..thanks:)
Atlantist10
17/11/06
This month is a stress month.....:(
I feel sorry for my self....
i cant get what I want....
as I can see, the world is not looking for me...
its just ignore me....
I feel bad to those people who are affected...
whom I hurted so much... whom I make happy then feel sad...
Im sorry...
I just need a sign...A word... A blessings....
I know someone will fix it for me....
I trust Him.
He will never give this kind of trial with out any reason...
He will give me something that will give way of this moments of pain....
Prayers is all i've got...
Thats all I have... And will again and again will have...
atlantist10
20/11/06
I'm disappointed,stressed,depressed and tired.:( but I cant do anything. School makes me Stressed. People make me disappointed. Problems makes me depressed...I'm tired.. But I'm still giving someone a "thank you". She's everything....My Mom and mamang is my everything. Even they let me down sometimes...they always pull me up and say everything will be fine...:) prayers is powerful, Loveones makes you happy, friends gives you company, Family makes your life full and VERY happy:)
-I might be very down this time, but you can still see me smiling because I have the most important thing...Them...
"PRoblem is just a part of taking the way of life"
I always says that when someone have a problem, so, now, im applying it to my self... so i know,this problem i have is just a part of taking the way of my life
atlantist10
21st is one of my fav NumbEr...:)
ok... TodAy... I WAZ A fool, thinking that our mock dama is GoIng in Nothing:) but it didnt! Its ok:D I did my best and so my groupmates too! im quite happy on it:) cant wait to perform again;) I LOVE ACTING I hope God will give me a chance to perform infront of the whole WORLD!lol! impossible?hehehehooohh... so still busy, tommorow will be my last art lesson before ART MOCK,, duh! 10hrs of ART! hOpe It goes well to!:D hehehhe I need to update my IPOD for more music to listen while doing my art:D I cant wait!:Doohhh.. but tommorow I'm going to finnish my practice mock peice:D
so..till next update...
ahh... I dont wana PuT Those bad things today... i wana calm my self, stress free 1st untill I finnish my MockS:D
I smile:)
so...dududududuudHHH!
what else???
ahh ya..
back to work!:D
need to update my foodtech course work again:D
Atlantist10
22/11/06
I dont know if i'll be happy or not. but..I'm just thankful for that things I have..for the things I dont have, its not the time, I knwo, God have plans...:)
Mock exam for art tom!
LUCK:)
atlantist10
My art mock is done. I'm freaking nervous when I only have 2 more lessons left to finish, and i haven’t done my background that time. But thanks God, I finished it but i haven’t polish it yet. Its a picture of Westminster abbey. I used paint and card. for it. Hope my teacher likes it:D i just hope.. Tomorrow, we're going to move to our new house! I cant wait!:D I'll take a picz of it when I got there.:)
weekend is the best.... December is coming now!:)15days before my birthday.:) I have to know what will happened on that day:Dehheheh I'll be 16! man! I'm getting Older n older with out even noticing the good things that happened to me. Negatives always comes in my face! but now, I think positive... I'll live my life as full as I can... Being stress is nothing. It just give me wrinkles! I’ll just write my stressed out!!!rather that showing it… hahahys….J
Till next time…
I have to revise for my other mocks for next week! I have to finish this all up!!!!
atlantist10
15/12/06
Last 10th of December was my 16th birthday. It was fabulous. I enjoyed it! Specially the opening gifts part.lol. My Mom really suprised me. I never thought that I am going to have a party like that. :) but as they say, UnikaIha, Ofcrz I have to have a Party.lol. It was great. I just dont know how lucky I am to have my mom like her. Ofcourse, my grandma. I miss her so much.I shed a tears when she texted me saying Happy birthday. I just remmembered her preparing for almost all my birthdays I had. How I just wish she was here. :) but ei cheerup! this vacation, I Hope i can visit her and my families in phils. heheh.. ok back to my party.
For my friends, thanks for coming, Jade, jeleasa,tenisha,sonya,malean, abi,and anna.! thanks for the pressi evry1! thanks for the laughter! the drinks we shared! even we're only 16:D the dancing bit was funny! We're all crazy!heheh the singing part is the bez! I neva score 100 when I'm happy!Lol! thanks for a very gr8 night! For those who prepared, my lovly aunties, they are the bez! ilove them! my titos and titas who attend!!!thanks!! I really enjoyed my 16th birthday!I hope everyday is my birthday! i dont care id I get old fast as long I am happy as I was in my birthday!
Now, week has been past. back to normal classes, homeworks cant fit on my planner!!!but hey! 3more school days and here we comes xmas holz! I cant wait! I'm so happy for my mom, she's going to phils. How i wish i can go aswell.:) but I'm going somewhere to! ehhehe I bet this will be gr8!. so..weekend.. ok 1 day chill first and sunday, do ya courses!!!hehehe! I am on the mood on typing today. I dont even care if i spelt this thing right..hehehe
ok. I have to cook rice first then back to computer.:D
Loveya Hunniieess!
jam
16/12/06
Earpierced!!!!!!:D im so happy! thanks to My MommY!!! I have 4 now:D
20/12/06
The time runs so slow when you're waiting for it.This morning,I really can't bothered to wake up! but hey! Its half day.I don't wana take another day off just because its half day. Anyway. Today was quite fun. Ofcourse, Gifts are comming, cards from friends ready to open. Chocolates,Absolutely lovin it now! ehhehe.. Thanks to every1 who gave me cards and presents.I already open some of them lol. I cant wait till christmas to open my gifts.
But thanks God.Chillin' time! No school for 2weeks!!
Last Assembly, I was Fozen. It's just like I'm in a film! hehehe! Thanks God, I got student of the term for my FOOD TECHNOLOGY course!! Hard work for the term is paid up!I'M so happy!!! But hey! my targets next are science and maths. heheh I still have loads of course works to do, so mybe, b4 christmas,I am going to do it bit by bit before I'm off to my vacation.:D
Last monday,my mommy went on her vacation to philippines. I'm so happy for her.:)Still im a bit lonely.:(coz i keep on crying everytime I'm by my self.:(But I'm trying my best to cheer up thanks for those who always cheer me up!:D I'm lucky to have friends like them.:D
Tommorow....I have loads of plans to do, but I have to cancel one of those to go on the other one. Sick init but I have to.:D hahays. I'm very tierd, and I'm hungry aswell.
at the moment, I am talking to someone:D hehhe he makes me laugh seriously loud. heheh I like him.:D oohh..hehhe.okies. I need to update some of my profiles too!HEheheh
Atlantist
24/12/06
Asusual.... My very fwen KIM wake me up. Ofcrz. He makes me smile again!!!! He's playing solitaire again!!! to sad...:( heheeh..Juz Jokin... Ohh He makes me laugh really hard:DIlove him:D JEEZZee
LAst christmas....was Fun. Beacause I'm with my mom. :D but now, :D she's in the Phils. Im sad but Im tryin not to because I know she's enjoying her vacation:D
TONIGHT!!!!! PARTY!!!!!HoooRRAAayyyy!!!! ICANT WAIT!!!! I want to drink hard tonighT! lolJEEZZ!!! I WANA GET DRUNK!!!HEHEHEH!!!I'll color ma hair redish pink!!!eheheh tHeN I'll ware 3 pairs of earings at the same time!!!lol then I'll do ma hair I'll curl it as curly as I can!!!:D we're Gona have PartY!!!! DanCinG KARAOKEEEE!!! I'll try 2 get five continues 100% score lol!!!Ofcrz!!! MY GIFTS UNDERNEATH THE XMAS tree!!I WANA OPEN IT!!!!!!!!! Im so hyper today!!!hehehehe!!!!
TOmoro...xmas day!!!I'm going to spend most of the xmas day in the airplane:Dadventure!!!heheh:D im so xcited to see my DAD&mysis,mabro and my family in US!:D Pray for my safe trip!:Dhope everything will be fine:Dthis is my 1st time to see my dad on xmas day:D ehhehe
I'm going to bring my math coursework in the plane!!!hehehe!i still have loads of works to do.so ill do it there:D so the time will just pass by init:D
I'll juz update my blog after the party:D
Love all
jam
atlantist10
Merry Christmas! 2006
12/25/06
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVRY1 I hope you all
had a gr8 gr8 gr8 gr8 Christmas EVE!and welcome 12am sharp Christmas with a kiss!coz Idid!!!! Iwas the Lil CRAZY curled and reded hair BIATCH last night! BAcardi+champhange+white
wine to the MAX hunni!!!! Take note! I'm 16!Lol!!! Joking!!! Im 18? ahh no im 20? lol! I
admit! I feel drunk lastnight HEAVY!!! a bit?!nah
actually...i want more joke!!!.. The FOOD WAS FAB! Ilove it! i was very full last night!!! BUT the dancing bit makes me hungry again! DANCING number WAS THE
CRAZzzIEST Bit In the party!!!! we all
danced!!!! COz we're all drunk!!! The singing Into was made by me:D The KARAOKE was also drunk!!lol wont work properly but still GooD!!! I love singing last night! they are all laughing at me! lol! joke. na.. i hope they love it! I was the entertainer!!! I nearly be the strip dancer for god sake! lol hehehe! Ilove my tita and titos they are all very cool!! Because i keep on shouting last night, my voice is in bad condition... and my head is still spinnniiinngg! whooo!!but i hav eto wake up early coz i have to put the picture in my computer.:D oohhh how i wish my family was here too!! hahays..the secret santa bit is funny!!! coz we all said something about our secret santa b4 giving the gift!!hehehe! The picture picture makes the day memorable ofcrz!! we had loads of pic! I wont fit on my camera momory gosh! well i had a great meryy christmas...
"Its a special day of our father today, so let make this day our special day too"
Those who attend the party last
night!!!! YOU ARE ALL THE BEST TITO's
and Titas!!!!3am sleep and i wake up
7am:D wont show how good time we
had!!!! THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY!:D
---All my bags are packed I'm ready to go,... lol! yup my bags are pack and Im ready to go to AMERICA to see ma DADDY!!!!and my family up there!!:D Im so excited!!!:D even though ill spend my xmas in the plane, I'm sure it worthy worthy!!:Dhehe. Pray for my good and safe trip! This will be ADVENTUROUS! I dont know where i am going! lol!!! huh anyway.. Have a good day2day!!! its christmas day!!! Thanks Evry1!!!
ILOVE YOU ALL!!!
merry christmas again!!!!
sowee if i cant all send ya testi!!!
lol!!
I'll try 2 update as possible when im there:D
TCEEErrr!
love much!:D
jam
Give love on christmas day:Dmuahhhh
atlantist10
I spent my chirstmas adventuring:D My first time to go somewhere by my self through plane:D Its so cool. I dono where i'm going but still I still arrived safely and in the right destination Thanks God for that:D So I arrived safely and My uncle pick me up, then I met my dad then we went home:D I miss him so mcuch.
We went out yesterday Me, my dad, my sis and my brother we went shopping eat and Bowlin I had a great time and I'm enjoying my vacation:)
Atlantist
JANUARY 3 2007
2006 woke me up 2006 gave me loads of opportunities I learned loads of stuff like, love, faith, forgiving, accepting, trusting and the most important Understanding. I've been a silly girl in my entire life. I took loads of stuff for granted. I waste l loads of stuff for nothing. I ignore loads of stuff that needs a time to see and those LOADS of STUFF are the STUFF that supposed to be lifting me up. Now, as I say goodbye 2006, I’m also saying THANK YOU 2006. This is because, behind those trials that I’ve been through, there are still GOALS that I accomplished that gives 2006 a wonderful and a meaningful year. First, 2006 was the year that I accomplished one of my biggest dreams. Never in my dreams that 2006 was the year that I’ve waited since was I a kid. This is to be with my dad. August 21 2006 was the date. That date will always be memorable. A picture was taken, moments that we shared, advices that I was longing for and love that I’ve been seeking for my entire 16 years here on earth:D. It’s hard at first but when that day comes there is only one thing that comes on my mind, it is that I AM BLESSED. I am very happy to get to know my family in US and finally I was about to see my half sister and m half brother. Those were one of the best times in 2006 and that time is the time I found acceptance In 2006, I learned about LOVE because God gave me a mother who gave me life; raise me with her love and guidance. My mother is the person that I know that knows what LOVE is. From my mother, I learned that raising a child by her own is not impossible as long as you’re strong and have faith and love on you. I’m thankful for my grandmother; she’s the person that I will never ever show my back on her. I’ll give her all my love. I was very thankful that she is my grandma, who never fails to guide and love me like my mother. Since I was a child, I always regret the days that I was a pain in the ass. My grandmother and my mother are the best teacher that has a degree on Love. NOW, I can say the entire world that MY MOTHER and my Grand mother is what you call a real MOTHER. Because, there is nothing in this world will ever beat a love of a mother, and that what they have showed me. I don’t want this blog to be one of my major blog, because, if this is going to be my major, it will takes me 1 week to finish it. I have loads of people to thank to in 2006. To my aunties special mentioned to TITA GAY AND TITA VANGIE. Who’s been one of my mother with in 2 years. The love they have showed me, and the advices, and the time you spend listening to me even I give u headaches sometimes. For me, my tita G&V is not my titas, they are one of my mom :) I love them. To my family in Philippines. :( Even though, 2006 is not the year to see all of you, I will try my best to come on 2007 :D I miss every single one of you! 2006 gave me a chance to gain more friends. I get to know them well till we became very good friends. My friends here in UK they where the people whom I can jokes a laugh around with and I’m thankful that they showed me care and a love of a good friend.:) ofcrz, my friends in the PHILIPPINES even though we are far far aways, thank you for those people who never fails to remember me. :) That is what I call real friends. And I seriously miss all of you! D.A.M.N. I have loads of people to thank to for the 2006. Now I can see that blessing is the one that needs to be counted, not the failures. 2006 also, I got an award in my school, SHHIITT! I, Da>mN I was about to cry, I don’t expect that!:) im so thankful!! FAITH, 2006 showed me more about faith is God. Because, I will never have all this with out the help of HIMJ that’s why 2006 woke me up to see that I am BLESSEDJ 2007! Just about started.:D so far so good. Started the year on shopping! Gosh! Now, is another chance that I will never do what are the things I was not suppose to do.:) I need to straight the things that are curled before. And more dreams that need to be accomplished.:D WELCOME 2007!!!!! GO GO GO For me!!!! I have loads of New Year’s resolution but ill keep it safe fro now. My priority and the fist is my list is to get a GOOD GRADES ON MY GCSE!!! Please, I hope this will be the yearJ. Until next update people!!!! I love you all!!!! MUAHHH!!! Jam atlantist
8/02/07
"Its freezing outside...
snow in my sight...
white proves purity...
but I noticed..Its empty...
on valentines day...
Will the sun really shine??
or it will be a white valentine...?"
--today was a happy day... a ring from my friend wakes me up..."do you think the School is open?" and I answered "idont know". I opened my window.. Pure white...Da.mn.I smiled.. "i think there will be no school..Bye"call ended..
Mommy's still sleeping but I wispherd.."its snowing"...:) she smiled..."lets take a picture"...I ran and put my scarf for sure"...The pathway is so soft..."its cold..." Its snowing... Its snowing...lets make a snow man!and then I ran...
After a year without snow.. Finally it snowed!!!:)
but what im thinking this time....
will it be a.."white valentine?"
-Jamielah
11/02/07
Its so pity to think that you have to give up something because you cant see any good result on it. I've been trying to work on it, give an effort on it just to make it work even its so hard. I know from the start, it not right to do what I did but, I know in that time, it will make me happy, which it did happened but it didnt last. I already reflected on it before but, Its just like...Its not the same anymore,all i can think is mybe, he thinks that... i will not give up... but i think...im starting to...
too bad. i think i already started to....!!!..
15/2/07
A late valentine blog.J
Yesterday was valentines. I did not even notice that time runs that quick. My valentine sucks. Lol! I was so busy yesterday, Well, It is ok. Because I talk to someone whom does, I like to talk to but in the end, he disappointed me.LHowever, its ok, thanks to someone who made my day very very specialJ thanks to my ---. You know who you are. Lol
From my previous blog, I was expecting a white valentine. But unfortunately its not.. No snow happened yesterday.J
Summing up all the things that happened yesterday, we had a party and it goes quite well. I love the microphone! Even though I suck at singing. I love the song FAME! Because they will remember my name when I sang that yesterday. I love the food even though I did not eat loads. I love the loud laughing and the dancing bit!J Oh. I love my aunties; they know how to have fun! (Big shout to my Tita’s!) The best things that happened yesterday was, I figured out that flowers, chocolate and any material things is not what will make your valentines perfect. Its the way you do/ show the word “I love you” and the way how you will make someone happy in your own way.J Maybe I made my mom angry because of the phone card she gave me lol but, Ill make it up today.J I love her really.
I had loads of things to say to my blog today but I forgot. Wahahah! Maybe I am just not in the mood or I am still sleepy because I sleep around 12:30 am last night. About the song “Someday” from NINA, It did not goes as I expected, I was about to do one big decision yesterday but I am not yet ready. Until here, I will just continue this on http://www.simplyadore.piczo.com (daily blog section) J
Ps. I love you to those people whom I did not greet happy valentines!J
-jamielah
My saturday...and sunday
Sometimes in some point of our lives, we’re going to be somewhere when we are very happy, but in the other point of that time we can think that it will not last that very long,…it will be just another memory in our life where in when you turn back from it one day... you can say,,, “you know what? on that time I’m very ..very.. Happy!”
And today… Today , I can say, a night with a meaningful smile: ) I had a great time.:)PLEASURE...lol
-Sweet...
-I admire..-
Ilike..
-Imess...
-i love iT!:)
Party..
the best ever..
With a friends like them…
(pIx LasT-FirSt)
keep Smiling Malean!
Friendly H-U-G:P
Squeezzeee MEEE
F-r-i-e-n-d-lllll--yyy:P
Smile More!
wiTh The BoYs.:P
Carry The Celebrant!
Carry mE First!!
Lol!You Lift Me Uppp!!!
ChuCkies Angels..Lol JokIn:)
Keep Posing
That Makes aKoN's soNgs..
GroUp Pix
Im NoT yEt ReadY!
^^v again:P
Malean Ur The Best!PosEr Ever!
AdvErtising someones A$$??JokE
Tickle TimE!!
Smile While I Kill..lol
I LOVE THIS PIX!!
Crazy wiThPix
I Feel SO SHORT!
JammY shorty!
Ma New BezGal
AgaiNst The suN
after aloNg Walk..
Who's the best?
WAIT!!!
Tryin To BE Short
IlOve BeiNg WitH TheM!
I keep on LooKinG at those pix.:) it makes me :) so hard!!IlOvEtHeM..AltHoUgh..SOmePeoPle Is mIssiN In The PaRty>...TherE wiLl AlwaYs be NExTImE:)
so..overall..A Brilliant day:)
I hope's evryday's like this Fu**in CraZy DaY:)hehehe
Happy birthday to my friend Valerie! 17th! wah..The candle was 71!:)
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Ok.So that was yesterday. Today.. we went to mass...Then.... a nagging scene happened...
There is a lot of love coming your way from friends, proving that you are cared for.
In Detail
There is a lot of love coming your way right now, although it might not be coming from the source you were hoping for. You're in something of a quiet phase, romantically speaking -- but there is a lot of energy in the friendship area of your life! The people you choose to spend your free time with are totally in love with you -- and they will be showing you this in some very touching ways today. Remember that you are loved and worthy of love -- no matter what's going on in your love life.
all true...
all happened..
My baby...Thank you for being there... I know from the start we had our "right love at the wrong time" lol.having a complicated situation makes our relationship even more stronger and we even crave for more.. Thanks for the trust... for giving me streghth when i was weak, your words that makes my knees unweak most of all thank you for your "love" when i feel sometimes, i am not "worthy of ..love".
I still have loads of things to do..and even i cant bothered to do any single one of them, I have to.
"lord,please help me,tell me whats the right thing to do"
.jamielah..
HAPPY MOTHER'sDAY+PSP
First of all, I want to greet my mother, a HAPPY MOTHERS day : ) I also want to say that , “I am very thankful for having a mother like you”.
My mother is strong.
She have faith that keep her strength all along
She love me deeply that no one can beat.
She gave me life that no one can ever give : )
I love her.
To the entire mother’s out there! To my MAMANG! (ILOVE YOU) To my aunties in Philippines & here in UK! A big shout of
“HAPPY Mother’s day!!!!!”
Today, I wake up not feeling well. I have plans this morning but unfortunately, I was unable to do it. But still, to make my mom happy, I went to our garden, pick up 3 daffodils
and give it to my mom and my aunties and greet them a HAPPY MOTHERS day!. They are surprise actually. Especially my mom because she thought that I forgot that its mothers day today here in UK. Therefore, we went to church then eat in KFC, then to town. We went to GAMES store. We saw a PSP. DA.MN. It is so cool! I love it. Then my aunty said, “Let’s buy one” I just smile because I know my mom is not ready to buy me one. However, she came up near us and asks me, do you want one? I am shocked and I said to my self is she joking? Then she said she is serious. Therefore, I spend my time thinking if I am going to ask for it. And the ans… Is YES!!! So.. She bought me a WHITE PSP
with matching SIMS2
game! Same as my auntie! I am very happy until now I cannot believe that after waiting its here=) my day is good… As in good as I ever expected=)
MY white..PSP:)
“God, thank you for a good day.
Thank you for every thing you have given to us.
Today, thanks for the guide, food, and my PSP
Thank you: )”
Back to work! I will update more if I am not busy: )
